That's the weird thing about neurodivergence. I forced myself for a year to finally "come out of my shell" and socialize in the college. On the surface I succeeded, got a friend group, hanging out frequently. Nothing improved, at the end of the year I was dreading any social interaction more than ever.

Turns out I had AuDHD and I was masking (pretending to be neurotypical when around people). Can't tell you how exhausting that is. I cut off all my friends and couldn't be happier since.

Some people are simply not wired to socialize.